Ok .. this is going to be random for a lot of you reading this .. (Like I have a ton of followers). However, I'm writing because for about a week now, I have been living "on the lighter side." No .. I'm not dieting - I should be- - - even better ... I'm LIVING!
You don't realize just how much anger, hurt, and bitterness you hang on to, until it's gone. .... ... I believed I had let it go. That It didn't bother me, and that things were the way they were, and I'd just have to learn to deal with it and move on... Which I did ... - Or so I thought. ... But it was always there. The questions, the worries, the anger, the frustration ... hiding underneath all the smiles and laughter. Under all the strong, courageous, actions - it was there - and not far from the surface, I might add. ... But I'm not weighed down with it anymore.
Forgiveness is a wonderful thing. Especially when it's a true act of forgiving. When those involved have been healed enough to feel ready for it. The giving and the receiving. For understanding mistakes, and realizing the need to mend things. I've made many mistakes in my life, and I'm sure I will continue to do so, but I will always give myself credit for learning from those mistakes, and growing, and moving on in a more positive manner. ... .. Do I deserve forgiveness? ... I hope so! I know that I won't take certain things for granted anymore. I know what is important to me, and I love and appreciate all that life offers me. I have been relieved of the heaviness I was carrying around - - a weight of, anger, guilt, sorrow, and bitterness for years... I didn't realize how much it consumed me. And I had no idea how freeing it would be once it was gone. The burden started to feel normal... like it would always be there, and I would need to drag it with me thru the rest of my life. And then one day - out of the blue.... it's gone, and I'm finally living back "on the lighter side" of life! -- I'm almost floating on air...
~ Signing off XOXOXO